The Future is Scary.

^^I don’t even watch Star Wars but I had to put this in here

If you’re in high school, you’ve probably been hit in the face with a lot of reality recently – like me. As soon as freshman year starts, it’s like there’s a magic button that gets pushed and everyone suddenly becomes extremely inquisitive about your f U t U r E. They begin bombarding you with questions like: “What college do you want to go to?” “What do you want to study?” “What’s your GPA?” “Are you taking the ACT or SAT anytime soon?” These questions (and others like them) will all eventually lead to The Big Question™, which is: “WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO WITH YOUR LIFE?!”

And that’s scary.

I’m a sophomore, and I’m finding that the farther I get into high school, the more people seem to enjoy overwhelming me with questions about my future. It kinda freaks me out, because I don’t know the answers to most of them. I feel like people expect me to have my whole life planned out from now until the day I die.

But I don’t, and it’s scary. I mean right now, I’m just trying to get my driver’s license and save up some money – not plan out my entire career (which, by the way, I have no idea what I want to do, soooo…yeah. That’s helpful).

It’s hard to focus on my present when so many people are asking about my future. I want to enjoy my time in high school and do fun things while I’m still young (cause I’ve heard from multiple sources that ya tend to get old pretty fast – yikes), but it’s difficult. It feels like almost everywhere I go, there is someone asking me about my future. But the thing is, I’m still asking myself (and God of course) about my future.

Not gonna lie, fully trusting God with my future is a struggle. I pray for Him to open doors and show me where I should go, but I don’t exactly know when that’s gonna happen. I reeeaaallllyyyy want to know where I’m going, but I don’t. I’m in the backseat of my own life, trying to trust The Driver and His timing. It can be hard – really hard – but I’m doing my best, and that’s better than not trying at all.

Making decisions about the future is tough, especially when the future is still unknown to you. To be honest, I’m afraid of looking back at my life in a few years time and regretting a major decision I had to make. I have to remind myself every day that even though the future is unclear to me, it’s crystal clear to God. If I surrender it all to Him, He’ll open doors and lead me down the path I’m supposed to be on. That’s something I’m trying hard to work on.

But it’s still scary.

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Can you relate? Let’s chat in the comments, I’d love to hear your thoughts!